9-8-10

Hey.....Im still kicking.

Just noticed that there have been a lot of people looking to see if Ive written anything, so I thought I would just say.....

HELLO!

Peace out....

3-24-09

Hi.

The house is quiet right now because everyone is still sleeping. The baby didnt get up last night, that I know of.

Its raining today. Its supposed to be in the 60's, but theres rain. I dont mind the rain. Im glad the kids are sleeping in, they need it. I was up early this morning. 6am. Yeah, that seems early for me as of late. So I got up, and Ive been sitting here just chilling and watching the rain.

The baby wakes up as I speak. Ahhh...I love his cry. I think he wants his Grandma. Ok, he wanted me for a second, hes hungry.

This child doesnt use a pacifier. He spits it out. When he cries, hes hungry or he needs to burp. I take advantage of his cries because you dont hear it much.

Poor Jessica looks tired this morning. I guess he didnt sleep all night. Oh to be a young mom.

The baby is breastfeeding so I cant really help her. I wouldnt mind getting up at night to feed the baby, just so she can sleep. Jessica is getting a pump so we can help her out, but its a big ordeal. She can get one to 'borrow' but she needs to run all over to get the damn thing. I think we are doing that today.

Brad has been a good dad so far. He is doing what he can. Changing diapers and 'helping to feed the baby'. I dont really know what that means when he says that, but Im just going along with it. He has also been getting up with Jessica, to help out with what he can. I think he likes his little boy. I think he will like him more when he gets a little bigger. Right now, Curtis is so little and just wants his mom.

So being a Grandma is pretty cool. Its even more cool that Jessica is still living at home. I got to help her give him his first bath. He didnt like that too much. Ive also been able to watch him while she gets some sleep. Im not complaining.

I go back to work tomorrow. For whatever reason I have only had to work 1 day out of the last 5. Its been nice. The kids are on spring break this week, but they are at their dads. Jessica will be home alone tomorrow for the first time. Lets call it 'bonding' time. lol.

Eric has been the most amazing 'Pops' as well. He talks to Curtis and teaches him a word a day. We have the job of making sure this child is well educated. I dont worry about Jessica. Shes smart. Its Brad that is a little slow. He was brought up way different than Jessica. He was an only child who was spoiled rotten. Hell, he is still spoiled rotten.

There are photos. Im not sure what Eric is doing with them. I hope he posts them to his Flicker acct. He takes the most amazing photos and I cant get that through his thick skull. I appreciate all the photos hes taken. He has 'caught' Curtis.

I have made a little project for myself that will take a year. Im taking a photo a day of the baby and at the end of the year, Im going to make one big photo. Im going to print them up as 1 inch by 1 inch pictures and then put them in order so we can see his growth. I think after a year, it will be just once a month...lol. I thank Eric for helping me do this as well.

Time for me to go. I need to bond with my baby boy. I will update soon.

Peace out...

3-18-09

My daughter, Jessica and her new son Curtis.

He was born on March 17th at 10:54pm. He weighed 7 lbs 6 oz and measured in at 20 1/2 inches long.

Hes amazing.

Shes amazing.

Im so very proud of Jessica for all her hard work during the labor/delivery process. She is so very patient with him and so attentive. She is going to be such a great mom.

Peace out...

2-23-09

Holy crap...Im blogging!

Hi!

I have just a few minutes before I have to get ready for work, so here goes...

The shower was pretty much amazing. It seemed like all the ladies, young and old, had a great time. We ended up having around 50 people show up out of the expected and RSVP'd 70. The weather was shit!! It was very cold, snowy and windy. At times it was white out conditions. We were thankful for everyone that showed up considering the weather.

We had more than enough food. Again, we planned for 70. The boys liked the leftovers. I was able to give away a lot of what was extra. I think we finished off what we kept, last night. The ham was amazing so I didnt mind eating it for a few days.

The games went well. It was difficult to come up with games for so many people, but we managed to pull it off.

Gifts...OMG she got so many gifts. Jessica got pretty much everything she needed or wanted. My gift to her was to buy her what she didnt get. Wipe warmer, stroller, bottles.....somewhat little things. Now all we have to do is wait for baby so we can start using this stuff!! I forgot to mention that it took 5 vehicles to bring all her stuff home...including a Suburban truck that was jam packed! It was fun transporting on such a cold, blustery day.

Besides Eric, Im not sure if any of my local friends read this....I just want to thank you once again for all your help this weekend.

Work is good. I went to management and asked for more hours. I got 'em. I went from 27 or so a week up to 35. I wont complain about that. I think what they are doing is weeding out the call offs and the slackers. They are training me for 2 more positions this week bring the total up to 5. Yeah, I will be able to work in 5 departments by the end of the week. It makes me 'global'. *lol*

Im not too sure what else is new. Eric is amazing. I love him more everyday. Im thankful he puts up with my 'shit'. The weather sucks. Its cold and windy and there is snow. The highlight is that the sun is visible. This is important in the melting process.

All for now. I need to get ready to go learn something new at work. Yay!

I probably wont post again until the baby gets here. We are thinking he isnt going to wait until March 10th. (hes anxious to meet his grandma!)

Have a great Mardi Gras....

Peace out...

2-16-09

Hi.

Its been a while since Ive been here. Ive been a tad busy.

It seems that Im always too busy to blog. I am, I cant help it.

Eric, Jessica and I have been working on the baby shower. Eric thinks this is the biggest thing thats happened to this town in a while. Its the 'social event of the year' is what he keeps telling me.

The RSVP's have come in. Most of the people we had to call for one reason or another, but the official count as it stands is 73 people. HolY ShiT!

This week I will be going over my list about 10 times a day knowing Im forgetting something important.

I keep telling myself that as long as there is enough food, the women will be happy. Right?

*sigh*

What else is going on? Besides this shower, not much of anything.

My son and his girlfriend broke up....again. This time I think he will listen to the mama and stay broken up. For the second time, he found out she cheated on him. Hes a mess, but he will be ok. He has already moved on to the next girl. An old girlfriend. I liked her. Who knows whats going to happen. Right now, they are just friends.

My daughter is going to give birth within a month. The ultrasound she had last week proved that this child has a big head. That freaked her out a little bit, but shes ok now. She has to get another ultra sound in 2 weeks to see how much hes grown. We went to the ultra sound to see our little man and I told the nurse I wanted a face shot. She laughed at me telling me that its almost impossible this far in the pregnancy to see his face. WELL, guess what I got? A face shot. I told the nurse that the baby and I have been talking and he was going to cooperate with me. Im going to be his favorite Grandma, I think.

I dont speak much of my younger two kids. They are boring...lol. They lead pretty uneventful lives and are quiet and reserved. I like that. No drama. No issues. No problems. Simple!

They are both happy and healthy, for the most part. My youngest has been sick as of late. She has this cold that just wont go away. Her perfect attendance for the year may have been scarred by coming home early one day due to a fever. We are hoping they over look that. And no, I didnt send her to school with a fever. She was cool as a cucumber when she left.

The weather is starting to act like Spring. Last count there were 31 days left until Spring. Right now, its sunny and pleasant. Its cold, but not windy like winter. Thank God! Im ready for this shit to be done with already. We have a little snow on the ground, but nothing to complain about. My dog can poop anywhere she wants to now without tippy-toeing through the snow.

Eric is doing good. He and I are doing good. Ok...better than good. We are great. He is the most amazing boyfriend, fiance person I could ever wish to have. Hes amazing. Simple. I love him! I love you, Eric.

Valentines Day was good. I told Eric not to buy me anything, but he did anyway. Booger. I had to work and of course, it was busy. We had a great day. Watched a race and just relaxed. I made dinner on Sunday for everyone, because I could. Happy V-Day everyone.

Race season has officially started. What a shitty race it was! They called the race with 47 or so laps to go because of rain. Bullshit. Dale took out 1/2 the field because Brian Vickers tried to block him. Kyle Busch wrecked...YAY! Jimmy Johnson had a sour day...heh! In talking to my NASCAR peeps, it was the worst race we have seen in a long time...especially for the 500! I can only imagine what the rest of the season will bring. New rules, new drivers and I work every Sunday. Oh well. Thank God for antiques like VCR's.

My next countdown, after the baby and spring, of course, will be the countdown to Joliet. Eric is going to enjoy a race weekend with me and my friends. I will end up giving him a kiss on Thursday and telling him I will see him on Sunday. He will enjoy the company and the food. Im not sure hes going to enjoy the crowd or the race or the heat or the sun or the noise or the fact that Dale Jr is there and I wanna see him. I get excited just thinking about it. More to come in the near future about the race.

My baby girl just told me we need to get interfacing. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT?? I think it means I have to take her to the fabric store and let her get what she needs.

I will drop a few lines in a week or so. Im sure by then I will have something exciting to say.

Peace Out...

1-21-09

Happy 2009.

This is my first post of the year. Ive been a tad busy.

My daughter is going to have a baby in about 8 weeks. I have been planning a baby shower for approximately 80 people. The store has been calling me in to work on my days off. Eric and I have been trying to spend some time together. Its been cold as shit and who wants to go outside when the temp is -15. I had a day in court.

I could probably go on and on. Its just been one of those years...again.

Jessica is doing great. Shes surprised me, a lot! I guess shes been a lot 'tougher' than normal. The baby shower, we decided, would make more sense if we had one huge one. There are so many friends and families, neither one of us wanted to go to 5 showers. So why not have 1?

My family, Brads family, my ex-family and friends. 80 people. Not to worry, the party isnt at my house. Hell, I dont think I could fit half of them here. We got the church my Grandma went to. She would have like that. I have been buying 'stuff' and organizing food and recruiting help with food and games and running around and trying to .... Get the point? Im slightly stressed.

We had Justins anniversary on the 13th. Of course it was one of the coldest days on record. To get to his grave site, we had to 'climb'...no 'trek'...ok we climbed and trekked through 2 feet of snow. Dont forget this was on one FUCKING cold ass day. I had snow up my pant legs...in my shoes. I was frozen. Eric, that snot, had boots on but made me go first. Eric and I were laughing because I know that kid was getting a kick out of watching us. God I miss that kid...

I got to go to court for an unpaid bill John is supposed to be paying. Long story short. I win! The lawyer is going to go after him because he makes like 10x what I do and agreed that he should pay his fair share. Its an orthodontist bill that I paid every time I took Jess to her appointment. I can get pissed right now, but Im going to let it go. Ive vented enough. I just hope that this lawyer can get John in court and I wont have to worry about this again. This lawyer also highly encouraged me to get a lawyer of my own to take John back to court for money child support. Im still on the fence. It will cost money and its another fight with the ex Im not sure I want to do. In the long run, he will be an asshole to his kids to get back at me. Hes a jerk like that.

Work is work is work. Not too long ago I worked 11 days straight. They have been calling me in on my days off and asking me to stay later or come in earlier. I need the money so I cant say 'no'. I miss being with Eric and the kids. Eric knows when I say, 'youre going to kill me', Im going in early. Hes amazing.

Eric and I are doing really, really well. Hes not driving me crazy like I thought he would. We spend as much time together as we can. We are both excited for spring to get here so we can actually be outside. Im thankful everyday for having him in my life.

We have a new president. Eric and I watched that together. It was an awesome moment. Im looking forward to change. Im looking forward to good things from Barack.

I just looked at the clock and I need to scoot. Ive got things to do today and Im not getting them done sitting here blogging.

I hope everyones New Year is going smooth.

Talk soon...

Peace Out!!!

12-29-08

Hi.

Its quiet in my house. Eric is at an interview. Jessica just left with Brad for a doctors appointment. Hailey is at her dads. Cory, I assume, is at his girlfriends. Travis is at work. The cats are sleeping, as usual. Kadie just had a shower and is sleeping as well.

Im home alone.

Its sunny and real windy outside. There isnt much snow left after the past few days of 50 degree weather and rain. It almost looks like spring outside. Im not fooled. There are 80 days left until spring.

Im working 9 days in a row. For some this may be no big deal. For me, Im excited to see the paycheck that follows. It will be slightly more than the piddle that I usually get. I have been looking around for something that pays more, but there isnt anything. Im not going to drive an hour to go to work. To me, its not worth it. I need to be accessible for my kids. Yeah, they arent little anymore, but I still need to be a 5 minute drive away if there is an emergency. Its a 'mom' thing.

Eric has a job fair thingy today. He had to get up early and drive an hour. I was going to call him when I woke up but he surprised me. I heard my dog bark, then him telling her to 'shut up'. Ok....he didnt exactly tell her to 'shut up', but you get the picture. Here came the most handsome man down the stairs. He had a suit on and smelled so damn good. He was clean shaven and smelled so DAMN good. Not everyday that Im waken up by a man in a suit. Probably a good thing, come to think about it.

He called me when he got to his destination. I think he was nervous. I just told him that he had nothing to lose, so be himself. Im nervous for him, but Im sure he will do fine.

Things are tight here. We are living day to day. Im sure we arent the only ones. It sucks.

I have this weird sense that things are going to be ok. Ive never felt like this before. Im calm and not stressed about much. First time in my life, I think.

Eric has done something to me. Hes done a lot of things to me but thats besides the point. He has given me a sense of security. Even though things arent the greatest economically, I know things are going to be ok. With him, me, us, my kids, our friends. It just a matter of time.

Im not too sure what the new year is going to bring for us, or me for that matter. Eric and I are going to make a list of things we would like to see or do, accomplishments, goals. Just a list. Nothing fancy. I dont do resolutions. They last about a week then they are forgotten. We plan to make this list on new years eve then seal it up. Next year we will open the envelopes and see what we can check off. Maybe the list for the next year will include some of the stuff we didnt do or accomplishments we didnt accomplish.

This year for me, has gone from being the saddest to the most joyful.

My 13 year old nephew died this January. I will never get over it. I will never forget it. I have never had anything happen to me that can make me cry in an instant. Im going to think of him every single day for the rest of my life and Im never going to forget him. I miss him so much, it hurts.

I met my Eric. Who knew we would go so far? It started off with a conversation with him saying he 'just wants friendship' to me saying 'i will never get married again'. Good Lord! I cant say that we have had ups and downs. It seems with him there have just been speed bumps. I thank my little angel for him. I can not imagine life without Eric.

My 99 year old grandma died. She lived a very full life. She is what I strive to be. She was the most amazing woman. Caring, loving, funny, smart. She is so missed by my entire family. She was the center of everything. I have so many things around my house that remind me of her, it keeps her alive in my mind. Im so fortunate that she got to meet Eric. She liked him. When I would go see her while he was in Pittsburgh, she would ask about him. Asking me when are we going to get married. That was my grandma.

Im going to be a grandma. March 10th. Curtis Justin Bradly. I cant wait for that little bugger to get here. Hes going to be loved by such a big family. I know that Jessica and Brad are going to be great parents. OK, so I worry about Brad. Thats normal, right?

I cant wait to see what next year brings. It will have an abundance of laughter, some sorrow, a lot of joy, a little pain, tons of fun, but mostly, it will have a shitload of love.

I wish everyone a wonderful new year. I hope its filled with peace and joy, laughter and fun. I hope that our paths dont part and I see you all next year.

Peace out...