5-9-08

Some things I will keep *shush* on here! Like a certain phone call at 11pm. Enough said.

Im behind. Ive had a hectic couple of days around here. My personal goal was to write something on here everyday. So I failed. Doesnt mean I cant start up again. I will try but life does get hectic.

Ok.....So, my darling Eric is back. Yay! He got here yesterday about 30 minutes before my PT appointment. Needless to say, it was very difficult leaving him! I got to PT and said, 'Lets GO'. I was out of there in 45 minutes with the promise I would go on a long walk in lieu of riding the damn bike for 15 minutes. I kept my promise. Eric, Kadie (the dog) and I went on a nice long moonlit walk. *sigh*

Im so happy hes back. I have missed him so very much. The void that was once there is now filled. Im so lucky to have such a wonderful man in my life. Im not letting him go...ever.

My girlfriend, Lynette, and my brother, Mark, also arrived 2 days ago. I think I mentioned this once before. Long...Long....Long story. Im not going there. At least, not yet. They brought along with them the new puppy, Widow, and their paralyzed dog, Moose. Moose got hit by a car not too long ago, and she couldnt put him down. Hes still 'Moose'. Please dont send me messages about animal cruelty...I know. I havent seen them in a few months, so to have them back in the house is wonderful. Squishy, but wonderful. Im very thankful that Eric and Mark are getting along. I was a little worried, but its all good.

So, I have a house full of people, animals, kids, boyfriends, girlfriends and chaos. I love it though. Everybody has a place to sleep. There seems to be food in the fridge to feed everyone. Everybody seems happy. So far, so good. I have 3 or 4 days to go. Eric, however, isnt leaving. I get to keep him for a few more days. This time will be good for us but it will also make him leaving that much more difficult.

The reason for all this company is because my Gram isnt doing all that great. Shes very confused and for me, its frustrating. She called my brother Mark, Neal yesterday. That about tore his heart out. Neal is our older brother. Not that there is anything wrong with Neal, its just that Mark hasnt seen Gram in a few months and he was hoping that she knew it was him. It was very hard for him. I dont blame him. Then he and Lynette took the trip to the cemetery to see our parents and our nephew that recently died. Another day for that as well.

This is getting depressing.

Im happy. I cant remember the last time I was this happy. Eric has brought out a part of me that I have never seen. He has made me feel things that I never thought were possible. Hes truly amazing and I am so blessed. I call him my Angel. He knows why....

I know I have more to say, I just dont know what.

Im looking at Eric as I type. His eyes, are happy. Mine, have tears welling.......Happy tears.

Eric, I love you

Peace Out...