10-12-08

Hi.

It seems like its been a long time since Ive been here, but it really hasnt. Its amazing how much time I have now that Im not tired and not working.

Work.

I have my first *real* day tomorrow. Im sure its not going to be great seeing as I dont really know what the hell Im doing. I was trained. Ive got the idea of what Im supposed to do. I also left that training day with a horrible headache from so much useless information. I hate days like those.

When I grocery shop, and I hate shopping, I want the checkout process to be quick and painless. Im doing the checking tomorrow and I can guarantee things arent going to be quick and painless. I expect to fuck up a lot. I hope they are ready for that.

I was trained on Thursday and Ive been off ever since. Hell, I dont think Ive even been to the store since then. Should be an interesting day tomorrow.

Im still looking for a job. I need full time. I need consistency. I dont have either with this job. I like my weekends off. If I have to work them every once in a while, fine. But every weekend?? I dont think so. I suppose Ive been spoiled a bit.

I had a few of my friends from Target over on Friday night. It was a movie night. They miss me as I miss them. It was so routine there and I miss that. I miss the 'your mom' jokes. I miss the stupid laughter. I dont miss the bullshit. One outweighs the other by a lot. I happier away from there. Period.

Eric has gone home and things are quiet here. My daughter even said it was weird without him around. I was able to keep a fairly clean house and even cook for him once or twice. (I REALLY hate cooking.)

He will be back in approximately 10 days. Hopefully this time for good. There is a job for him here, somewhere. My life is incomplete without him here. Thats my sap for the day!

On a positive note, I got him to retire the blue blazer/suit coat/grampa jacket. He was packing his car and he handed it over to me. I was like....WTF??? It made it to my living room, where my oldest son saw it and put it on. Hes like, "Cool coat. This is like a winter jacket, Mom." He put it on, and realized that he was really, really warm in it. So hes keeping it. OMG!!! I cant get rid of the damn thing.

Now, my son. 6' 6". 150 lbs soaking wet. Im going to insert photo below this when he gets home today, with the jacket on.

I could be wrong, but Im pretty sure that Eric and Travis arent the same size.

My daughter is doing well. We are all starting to get anxious to find out if shes having a boy or girl. I believe we find out on October 21st. I still say girl.

She has changed the girls name from Sarah Lexie to Klara Lexie. Klara was my other grandmas name. She died long before any of my kids were born so they didnt know her.

Jessica and I were digging through my cedar chest and we came across a book that was my grandmas. On the inside was written.... Klara Sophia Johannson. Jessica liked the name and spelling, so shes using it. I wish she would use the Spohia as well. eh, Oh well. For a second, Jessica wanted to name the girl Klara Sarah. I had to step in on that choice. I will update when we know the sex.

Im awesome. Im happy. Im rested. Im stress free. Im in love. What more is there?

All for now. I will post again when I have something to say. So much for everyday, huh? Oh well. Life changes everyday, so who knows what youre going to get.

Have a great week.

Peace Out....