12-21-08

Hi.

From what Eric tells me, its been a while since Ive posted. And I thought its only been a few days. Where does the time go?

Ive been busy. I have been working nights, a lot. I hate working nights. If anything, Im up early and like to get things done then chill the rest of the day. I typically go to bed around 9 so when I have to work until 9, it messes me up.

Im not really in the spirit of Christmas this year, again. Im not too sure why. I have my kids, I have Eric and Im working someplace I like working.

I think lack of money has something to do with it. I wish that I could fill the floor with gifts for everyone, but I cant. I do buy the kids stuff all year and I realized last year, I dont need to spend another shitload of money just for Christmas. They were all ok with that. So this year, they are all getting socks and underwear. They are ok with that.

Ive gotten Eric a few things, but Ive already given them to him. He gave me a DVD box set that Ive wanted for a while...I was so flippen happy! He also gave me a movie for my PSP. Simple. I hope like hell he didnt get me anything else....HINT HINT!!

More than anything, I just want to be able to hang out with my family for the day. Watch movies and just chill. I dont make dinner. We munch.

I have to work on Christmas Eve until 630. My kids will be at their dads, as usual. Eric and I are sure what we are going to do yet. Maybe chill at his house. Maybe chill at my brothers house. All that really matters to me is that Im warm, Im not alone, and Eric is with me.

Ive started to make cookies. Between the kids, boyfriends and girlfriends, we are making 19 different kinds. Eric and I started this morning. 5 down, 14 to go. My daughter is going to help me in the morning knock out a few more. I think after tomorrows batches, we will start handing them out the friends and neighbors.

Eric, Jessica, Hailey, Brad and I all went to see the Madrigals. The kids are from our local high school and to listen to them sing is amazing. Simply amazing. We dressed up and went for dinner. Dessert was on the table when we arrived. Bread Pudding. Long story short, I was up all night thinking I was going to die. I wasnt sure if it was my appendix blowing up, or the food I ate. We came to the conclusion that it was the bread pudding. Eric to the rescue. He stayed up with me and took care of me. He did my dishes. Took my daughter to her dads house. Gave the dog her meds. All the while it is 3 degrees outside with a windchill of 20 below.

My angel.

I told him after I slept until noon, that there is only one other person that would have taken care of me like that....Jessica. It was such a great feeling to have him take care of me. I kinda cant wait until hes sick so I can take care of him. He was wonderful. Im not 100% yet, but Ive been able to eat and do feel a ton better.

Im off to watch 'Fido' with most of my kids and Eric. I will give my review the next time I post. This is one of Erics movies, so we are all a little scared. Its about a zombie who is the 'dog' pet of these humans....I think. Should be interesting.

I hope you all had a great weekend. Stay warm and see ya soon...

Peace Out....