Hi.
The wind is blowing.
The leaves are flying.
Its cold.
The only nice thing about today is that the sun is out.
This time of year is my darkest. Im depressed, always cold, unhappy, depressed and cold. Did I mention that I was cold??
It is the time of year my father died. My nephew died. The holidays. The weather.
My shining light is that Eric is moving here. He wont let me be cold, depressed or unhappy. I look forward to this. He cant take away the passing of my dad or my nephew, but he can make it more tolerable.
Im not sure yet if Im going to be in the mood for Christmas. The kids and I werent last year. Hell, we didnt even put up a tree.
Im in the mood for Thanksgiving. I have things to be thankful for. I am thankful for things every day so a holiday isnt really needed for me. Oh and, Eric will be here 2 days later.
I read things my sister leaves on her MySpace account. It bothers me. It depresses me. I cant relate to loosing a child, however, Justin was like a child to me. He was my 'Little Man'. He was my 5th child. He was my baby. I miss him every single day and there isnt anything I can do to bring him back. My sister cant move forward. I know the reasons why just as well as she does. She and I arent on talking terms. We havent been for a few months now. Once again, I know why.
Im trying to get past the things she says, but its difficult at times. Today was a rough day. I will get better as the day goes on. I will think about Justin a little more than usual today.
Im going to the Dr with Jessica. See how my grandson is cooking.
Have a great day. Hug the ones you love.
Peace out...
Monday, November 17, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
11-9-08
Hi.
My life is changing as I know it.
Thing will never be the same.
I CANT WAIT!!!
Julie and Eric. Eric and Julie.
I know, youre all sick of hearing about us. Too fuckin bad! Im happy for the first time in a very long time, why not share it?
I know he is just as happy as I am, if not a smidge more. Hes like that.
Not too long ago, he found me on the internet, today we are making wedding plans. I know, we arent getting married for a few years but we have started a fund and we are finding things we both like. Things change, I know, but when I have something big going on, I start to make lists and plan. Yeah.....3 years away and Im planning. lol....it is kinda funny.
I have already found a style of wedding cake I like. My girls like it as well. Thats important, ya know. We have picked colors, which will more than likely change a dozen times. We have a date...thats not changing as far as I know. We need to work on where we are getting married. Outside for sure. It will be cool, but not cold nor hot. Thats important. Who wants to be hot for a wedding reception? I would hate for Eric to be too hot for dancing. And hes going to dance. Rene.....youre my cameraman, k?
Eric is moving here in 20 days. TWENTY DAYS!!! No more driving from PA. Hell, he wont ever have to drive. Its going to be a 2 minute walk to my house and thats if there is traffic!
Im excited. I cant wait. No more saying goodbye. No more long drives home that make me worry. No more waiting for him to get here.
We can now start our lives together. This means I may have to start cooking, god forbid. Im not going to do his laundry or clean his house.
Im not worried about getting tired of him or of him being in my 'space'.
I CANT WAIT to be with him forever.
Peace Out...
My life is changing as I know it.
Thing will never be the same.
I CANT WAIT!!!
Julie and Eric. Eric and Julie.
I know, youre all sick of hearing about us. Too fuckin bad! Im happy for the first time in a very long time, why not share it?
I know he is just as happy as I am, if not a smidge more. Hes like that.
Not too long ago, he found me on the internet, today we are making wedding plans. I know, we arent getting married for a few years but we have started a fund and we are finding things we both like. Things change, I know, but when I have something big going on, I start to make lists and plan. Yeah.....3 years away and Im planning. lol....it is kinda funny.
I have already found a style of wedding cake I like. My girls like it as well. Thats important, ya know. We have picked colors, which will more than likely change a dozen times. We have a date...thats not changing as far as I know. We need to work on where we are getting married. Outside for sure. It will be cool, but not cold nor hot. Thats important. Who wants to be hot for a wedding reception? I would hate for Eric to be too hot for dancing. And hes going to dance. Rene.....youre my cameraman, k?
Eric is moving here in 20 days. TWENTY DAYS!!! No more driving from PA. Hell, he wont ever have to drive. Its going to be a 2 minute walk to my house and thats if there is traffic!
Im excited. I cant wait. No more saying goodbye. No more long drives home that make me worry. No more waiting for him to get here.
We can now start our lives together. This means I may have to start cooking, god forbid. Im not going to do his laundry or clean his house.
Im not worried about getting tired of him or of him being in my 'space'.
I CANT WAIT to be with him forever.
Peace Out...
Thursday, November 6, 2008
11-6-08
Hi.
Its a boy. Curtis Justin Bradley.
We are all too excited. Even though a few of us thought it was a girl and had that hope, we are still more than overjoyed to be having a boy.
We got some cool ass photos of the baby, again. That just tickles me to pieces when they give us photos. I will be working on framing them for Jessica and Brad as Ive done with the other ones.
Its a boy.....
Peace out...
Its a boy. Curtis Justin Bradley.
We are all too excited. Even though a few of us thought it was a girl and had that hope, we are still more than overjoyed to be having a boy.
We got some cool ass photos of the baby, again. That just tickles me to pieces when they give us photos. I will be working on framing them for Jessica and Brad as Ive done with the other ones.
Its a boy.....
Peace out...
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
11-4-08
Hi.
I finally believe my daughter is pregnant. I felt the baby move.
After countless attempts of feeling my grandchild move, today was the day.
Jessica was laying in bed after I got out of the shower and she *quietly* told me to come in the room. I went over to her and she took my hand and placed it over her belly button. A minute or so later I felt a little kick, punch, fart....I dont know, but I felt it.
Finally.
Thursday we find out for sure that its a little girl. I dont know why, but since she told me, Ive had a feeling its a girl. Guess on Thursday we will know if my suspicions are correct. I dont really care which it is. I just want healthy.
Eric and I went to a wedding on Saturday with my kids. We had a blast. What Im a little disappointed in is that we didnt get any video of Eric dancing. Yeah, he was bustin a move. He claims that he had the camera while dancing. Yeah, right. I figure the next wedding, be it mine or my daughters or somebodies, hes getting video taped dancing. Period.
We talked a lot at the wedding about our own wedding. Things we liked and things we liked but would change a little. It was fun dancing with my man and talking about wedding plans.
My girls were dancing queens! I havent ever seen my youngest dance so much. Shes got rhythm. She and Jessica had a great time. Jess was a little disappointed that her belly wouldnt allow her to dance like shes used to, but she had a such a good time.
The ceremony was beautiful. The couple were happy. The reception was a blast. The food was good. The cake was yummy. The kids were happy. Eric and I were very happy. By the end of the night, we were pooped out!
The wedding party was in the same hotel as us. Actually they were across the hall. The party didnt end at the reception. My kids stayed up for a while to 'party' with them. In the morning the kids were telling us how much fun they had after we went to bed.
I can only hope for a wedding with as much fun.
Today we are going to vote. Jessica and I are going here in a little bit. She hasnt had the chance to vote for the President yet. She seems a little excited. At least I hope she is.
Work is work is work. I applied for a job this morning. I love where I work. Its mindless work which tends to bore me. It has busy times but mostly I find myself standing around, waiting. Im used to moving around and keeping busy. The people are nice, its a nice place to work BUT I need more money and more consistent hours. I will keep searching.
Jessica is craving egg salad, so shes making that right now. Eric has been playing with Kadie and having almost too much fun with her. Im chillin'. Im looking forward to the day off but I have a ton to do. Its going to be a beautiful day again today....YAY! We are expecting snow on Friday....BOOOO.
Have a great voting day....Go VOTE!
Peace out...
I finally believe my daughter is pregnant. I felt the baby move.
After countless attempts of feeling my grandchild move, today was the day.
Jessica was laying in bed after I got out of the shower and she *quietly* told me to come in the room. I went over to her and she took my hand and placed it over her belly button. A minute or so later I felt a little kick, punch, fart....I dont know, but I felt it.
Finally.
Thursday we find out for sure that its a little girl. I dont know why, but since she told me, Ive had a feeling its a girl. Guess on Thursday we will know if my suspicions are correct. I dont really care which it is. I just want healthy.
Eric and I went to a wedding on Saturday with my kids. We had a blast. What Im a little disappointed in is that we didnt get any video of Eric dancing. Yeah, he was bustin a move. He claims that he had the camera while dancing. Yeah, right. I figure the next wedding, be it mine or my daughters or somebodies, hes getting video taped dancing. Period.
We talked a lot at the wedding about our own wedding. Things we liked and things we liked but would change a little. It was fun dancing with my man and talking about wedding plans.
My girls were dancing queens! I havent ever seen my youngest dance so much. Shes got rhythm. She and Jessica had a great time. Jess was a little disappointed that her belly wouldnt allow her to dance like shes used to, but she had a such a good time.
The ceremony was beautiful. The couple were happy. The reception was a blast. The food was good. The cake was yummy. The kids were happy. Eric and I were very happy. By the end of the night, we were pooped out!
The wedding party was in the same hotel as us. Actually they were across the hall. The party didnt end at the reception. My kids stayed up for a while to 'party' with them. In the morning the kids were telling us how much fun they had after we went to bed.
I can only hope for a wedding with as much fun.
Today we are going to vote. Jessica and I are going here in a little bit. She hasnt had the chance to vote for the President yet. She seems a little excited. At least I hope she is.
Work is work is work. I applied for a job this morning. I love where I work. Its mindless work which tends to bore me. It has busy times but mostly I find myself standing around, waiting. Im used to moving around and keeping busy. The people are nice, its a nice place to work BUT I need more money and more consistent hours. I will keep searching.
Jessica is craving egg salad, so shes making that right now. Eric has been playing with Kadie and having almost too much fun with her. Im chillin'. Im looking forward to the day off but I have a ton to do. Its going to be a beautiful day again today....YAY! We are expecting snow on Friday....BOOOO.
Have a great voting day....Go VOTE!
Peace out...
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