Hi.
Its quiet in my house. Eric is at an interview. Jessica just left with Brad for a doctors appointment. Hailey is at her dads. Cory, I assume, is at his girlfriends. Travis is at work. The cats are sleeping, as usual. Kadie just had a shower and is sleeping as well.
Im home alone.
Its sunny and real windy outside. There isnt much snow left after the past few days of 50 degree weather and rain. It almost looks like spring outside. Im not fooled. There are 80 days left until spring.
Im working 9 days in a row. For some this may be no big deal. For me, Im excited to see the paycheck that follows. It will be slightly more than the piddle that I usually get. I have been looking around for something that pays more, but there isnt anything. Im not going to drive an hour to go to work. To me, its not worth it. I need to be accessible for my kids. Yeah, they arent little anymore, but I still need to be a 5 minute drive away if there is an emergency. Its a 'mom' thing.
Eric has a job fair thingy today. He had to get up early and drive an hour. I was going to call him when I woke up but he surprised me. I heard my dog bark, then him telling her to 'shut up'. Ok....he didnt exactly tell her to 'shut up', but you get the picture. Here came the most handsome man down the stairs. He had a suit on and smelled so damn good. He was clean shaven and smelled so DAMN good. Not everyday that Im waken up by a man in a suit. Probably a good thing, come to think about it.
He called me when he got to his destination. I think he was nervous. I just told him that he had nothing to lose, so be himself. Im nervous for him, but Im sure he will do fine.
Things are tight here. We are living day to day. Im sure we arent the only ones. It sucks.
I have this weird sense that things are going to be ok. Ive never felt like this before. Im calm and not stressed about much. First time in my life, I think.
Eric has done something to me. Hes done a lot of things to me but thats besides the point. He has given me a sense of security. Even though things arent the greatest economically, I know things are going to be ok. With him, me, us, my kids, our friends. It just a matter of time.
Im not too sure what the new year is going to bring for us, or me for that matter. Eric and I are going to make a list of things we would like to see or do, accomplishments, goals. Just a list. Nothing fancy. I dont do resolutions. They last about a week then they are forgotten. We plan to make this list on new years eve then seal it up. Next year we will open the envelopes and see what we can check off. Maybe the list for the next year will include some of the stuff we didnt do or accomplishments we didnt accomplish.
This year for me, has gone from being the saddest to the most joyful.
My 13 year old nephew died this January. I will never get over it. I will never forget it. I have never had anything happen to me that can make me cry in an instant. Im going to think of him every single day for the rest of my life and Im never going to forget him. I miss him so much, it hurts.
I met my Eric. Who knew we would go so far? It started off with a conversation with him saying he 'just wants friendship' to me saying 'i will never get married again'. Good Lord! I cant say that we have had ups and downs. It seems with him there have just been speed bumps. I thank my little angel for him. I can not imagine life without Eric.
My 99 year old grandma died. She lived a very full life. She is what I strive to be. She was the most amazing woman. Caring, loving, funny, smart. She is so missed by my entire family. She was the center of everything. I have so many things around my house that remind me of her, it keeps her alive in my mind. Im so fortunate that she got to meet Eric. She liked him. When I would go see her while he was in Pittsburgh, she would ask about him. Asking me when are we going to get married. That was my grandma.
Im going to be a grandma. March 10th. Curtis Justin Bradly. I cant wait for that little bugger to get here. Hes going to be loved by such a big family. I know that Jessica and Brad are going to be great parents. OK, so I worry about Brad. Thats normal, right?
I cant wait to see what next year brings. It will have an abundance of laughter, some sorrow, a lot of joy, a little pain, tons of fun, but mostly, it will have a shitload of love.
I wish everyone a wonderful new year. I hope its filled with peace and joy, laughter and fun. I hope that our paths dont part and I see you all next year.
Peace out...
Monday, December 29, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
12-23-08
I borrowed this from Erics Facebook page.
Did you get a boyfriend or girlfriend?
I got the man of my dreams
Did you make a new friend?
Quite a few through Eric....thank you.
Did you get into a physical fight with anyone?
Does it count if you beat up your kids? HEY, they hit me first!!!
Did you go to a funeral or wedding?
Sadly, both. RIP Justin and Grandma....You are both so very missed.
Get so drunk that you passed out?
Not yet. I have a bar date with an old friend on Dec 26th. Im sure to be drunk.
Lost your voice?
You wish.
Had someone tell you that they liked/loved you?
Every day.
How has '08 been so far?
Its had some major lows and some extremely high highs. I prefer to be high...hehe.
How old do you want to be when you die?
Eric and I have talked about this. I dont want to be around when Im 99. 70 is too young. I think 80-85. Maybe 88. Yeah, 88. Thats a great number!!
How do you feel about love songs?
I feel good about them.
Who was the last person to call you?
Jessica called me 5 minutes after I got to work.
Have you ever talked on the phone in the shower/bathtub?
You know when youre waiting for an important phone call, and it happens while youre in the shower??
Where's the person you miss most?
Heaven.
Do you just want to yell in someones face right now?
Ive yelled enough today. It was a bad day.
Was today a good day?
Um...
Whats wrong right now?
Im tired. My ankles hurt. Its snowing, still. Its cold. Im broke. I need to still buy Christmas gifts. My sister in law is in the hospital with a broken arm and leg from falling in the driveway DUE TO THE FUCKING SNOW. *sigh*
What are your plans for this weekend?
Work. When Im not working, I will be with Eric.
Are you dating the last person you kissed?
Duh!
Do you still play in the snow?
I will get out there once or twice to build a snowman and take Eric sledding.
Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
I dont know if its cute, but I like it.
Is there someone that you believe you will always be attracted to?
Yes.
Would you forgive a cheater?
Did they cheat on you or cheat at a game?
Are you mean?
I will be mean to you if you are mean to me.
Whos the first person in your contacts list in your phone?
Adele.
Does it matter when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
I dont think so.
Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
Hell yeah! Drives the kids crazy.
When was the last time you stayed up all night on the phone?
April 13-14, 2008, and it wasn't on the phone, it was with Eric. (Sorry I copied his answer)
Do you curse a lot?
I do have a potty mouth.
Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
Im in my work clothes, so yeah.
What are you listening to?
Something Jessica and Doorknob are listening to on the computer. Oh, and the heat just kicked in.
Where did you begin 2008?
I was in bed, sleeping.
What was your status by Valentines Day?
Single, but searching for a date to a November wedding.
Were you in school anytime this year?
Nope.
Did you have to go to the hospital?
Yep. Spent 3 days there for pain. After that, I was home for 3 months. OH, and spent a lot of time there with my Grandma.
Did you have any encounters with the police?
I dont think so.
Where did you go on vacation?
Weekend trip to Toledo, OH and to Lake Geneva, WI.
Did you know anybody who got married?
Yes. Troy and Amy.
Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yes. Justin and Grandma.
Did you move anywhere?
I wish.
What concerts/shows did you go to?
Well, we saw the Madrigals this past weekend.
Describe your birthday:
Spent it with the man I love.
What is the one thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2008?
Leave Target, and Im a better person for doing that.
What have been your favorite moments?
Finding Eric. Becoming a Grandma. Joliet races. Getting a new job.
Any new additions to your family?
Yeah, hes just not here yet. Hes still cooking.
What was your best month?
April and October.
Made new friends?
How many times do I need to tell you....Yes, I made new friends.
Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
Work?
Have you lost any friends this year?
I dont think so.
Change your hairstyle?
I dont think so.
Have any car accidents?
No.
How old did/do you turn this year?
41
Do you have a New Years resolution?
I dont do resolutions for New Years. I choose to be different and make them with it sounds good.
Do anything embarrassing?
Probably, but I dont remember. OH WAIT....calling BINGO when it was a blackout game. Yeah, I sunk a little bit in my chair while laughing my ass off.
Buy anything new from eBay?
Nope.
Get married or divorced?
Got engaged. Marriage will come in 2011.
Get arrested?
Nope.
Did you get sick this year?
A case of food poisoning.
Are you happy to see 2008 go?
Im anxious for 2009. My grandson. My daughters graduation. The stuff in 2008 happened for a reason. I couldnt control any of it. Im going to miss Justin and my Gram til the day I die. I met Eric. Hes the best thing thats ever happened to me and Im grateful for him. I dont know what next year will bring, but I will deal with it one day at a time.
Been naughty or nice?
Im always nice and never naughty.
What are you looking forward to most in 2009?
Curtis making his entrance. The July races, we have the most AMAZING seats. Summer. Weekend getaways with Eric. Jessica graduation.
Happy New Year
Peace Out....
Did you get a boyfriend or girlfriend?
I got the man of my dreams
Did you make a new friend?
Quite a few through Eric....thank you.
Did you get into a physical fight with anyone?
Does it count if you beat up your kids? HEY, they hit me first!!!
Did you go to a funeral or wedding?
Sadly, both. RIP Justin and Grandma....You are both so very missed.
Get so drunk that you passed out?
Not yet. I have a bar date with an old friend on Dec 26th. Im sure to be drunk.
Lost your voice?
You wish.
Had someone tell you that they liked/loved you?
Every day.
How has '08 been so far?
Its had some major lows and some extremely high highs. I prefer to be high...hehe.
How old do you want to be when you die?
Eric and I have talked about this. I dont want to be around when Im 99. 70 is too young. I think 80-85. Maybe 88. Yeah, 88. Thats a great number!!
How do you feel about love songs?
I feel good about them.
Who was the last person to call you?
Jessica called me 5 minutes after I got to work.
Have you ever talked on the phone in the shower/bathtub?
You know when youre waiting for an important phone call, and it happens while youre in the shower??
Where's the person you miss most?
Heaven.
Do you just want to yell in someones face right now?
Ive yelled enough today. It was a bad day.
Was today a good day?
Um...
Whats wrong right now?
Im tired. My ankles hurt. Its snowing, still. Its cold. Im broke. I need to still buy Christmas gifts. My sister in law is in the hospital with a broken arm and leg from falling in the driveway DUE TO THE FUCKING SNOW. *sigh*
What are your plans for this weekend?
Work. When Im not working, I will be with Eric.
Are you dating the last person you kissed?
Duh!
Do you still play in the snow?
I will get out there once or twice to build a snowman and take Eric sledding.
Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
I dont know if its cute, but I like it.
Is there someone that you believe you will always be attracted to?
Yes.
Would you forgive a cheater?
Did they cheat on you or cheat at a game?
Are you mean?
I will be mean to you if you are mean to me.
Whos the first person in your contacts list in your phone?
Adele.
Does it matter when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
I dont think so.
Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
Hell yeah! Drives the kids crazy.
When was the last time you stayed up all night on the phone?
April 13-14, 2008, and it wasn't on the phone, it was with Eric. (Sorry I copied his answer)
Do you curse a lot?
I do have a potty mouth.
Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
Im in my work clothes, so yeah.
What are you listening to?
Something Jessica and Doorknob are listening to on the computer. Oh, and the heat just kicked in.
Where did you begin 2008?
I was in bed, sleeping.
What was your status by Valentines Day?
Single, but searching for a date to a November wedding.
Were you in school anytime this year?
Nope.
Did you have to go to the hospital?
Yep. Spent 3 days there for pain. After that, I was home for 3 months. OH, and spent a lot of time there with my Grandma.
Did you have any encounters with the police?
I dont think so.
Where did you go on vacation?
Weekend trip to Toledo, OH and to Lake Geneva, WI.
Did you know anybody who got married?
Yes. Troy and Amy.
Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yes. Justin and Grandma.
Did you move anywhere?
I wish.
What concerts/shows did you go to?
Well, we saw the Madrigals this past weekend.
Describe your birthday:
Spent it with the man I love.
What is the one thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2008?
Leave Target, and Im a better person for doing that.
What have been your favorite moments?
Finding Eric. Becoming a Grandma. Joliet races. Getting a new job.
Any new additions to your family?
Yeah, hes just not here yet. Hes still cooking.
What was your best month?
April and October.
Made new friends?
How many times do I need to tell you....Yes, I made new friends.
Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
Work?
Have you lost any friends this year?
I dont think so.
Change your hairstyle?
I dont think so.
Have any car accidents?
No.
How old did/do you turn this year?
41
Do you have a New Years resolution?
I dont do resolutions for New Years. I choose to be different and make them with it sounds good.
Do anything embarrassing?
Probably, but I dont remember. OH WAIT....calling BINGO when it was a blackout game. Yeah, I sunk a little bit in my chair while laughing my ass off.
Buy anything new from eBay?
Nope.
Get married or divorced?
Got engaged. Marriage will come in 2011.
Get arrested?
Nope.
Did you get sick this year?
A case of food poisoning.
Are you happy to see 2008 go?
Im anxious for 2009. My grandson. My daughters graduation. The stuff in 2008 happened for a reason. I couldnt control any of it. Im going to miss Justin and my Gram til the day I die. I met Eric. Hes the best thing thats ever happened to me and Im grateful for him. I dont know what next year will bring, but I will deal with it one day at a time.
Been naughty or nice?
Im always nice and never naughty.
What are you looking forward to most in 2009?
Curtis making his entrance. The July races, we have the most AMAZING seats. Summer. Weekend getaways with Eric. Jessica graduation.
Happy New Year
Peace Out....
Sunday, December 21, 2008
12-21-08
Hi.
From what Eric tells me, its been a while since Ive posted. And I thought its only been a few days. Where does the time go?
Ive been busy. I have been working nights, a lot. I hate working nights. If anything, Im up early and like to get things done then chill the rest of the day. I typically go to bed around 9 so when I have to work until 9, it messes me up.
Im not really in the spirit of Christmas this year, again. Im not too sure why. I have my kids, I have Eric and Im working someplace I like working.
I think lack of money has something to do with it. I wish that I could fill the floor with gifts for everyone, but I cant. I do buy the kids stuff all year and I realized last year, I dont need to spend another shitload of money just for Christmas. They were all ok with that. So this year, they are all getting socks and underwear. They are ok with that.
Ive gotten Eric a few things, but Ive already given them to him. He gave me a DVD box set that Ive wanted for a while...I was so flippen happy! He also gave me a movie for my PSP. Simple. I hope like hell he didnt get me anything else....HINT HINT!!
More than anything, I just want to be able to hang out with my family for the day. Watch movies and just chill. I dont make dinner. We munch.
I have to work on Christmas Eve until 630. My kids will be at their dads, as usual. Eric and I are sure what we are going to do yet. Maybe chill at his house. Maybe chill at my brothers house. All that really matters to me is that Im warm, Im not alone, and Eric is with me.
Ive started to make cookies. Between the kids, boyfriends and girlfriends, we are making 19 different kinds. Eric and I started this morning. 5 down, 14 to go. My daughter is going to help me in the morning knock out a few more. I think after tomorrows batches, we will start handing them out the friends and neighbors.
Eric, Jessica, Hailey, Brad and I all went to see the Madrigals. The kids are from our local high school and to listen to them sing is amazing. Simply amazing. We dressed up and went for dinner. Dessert was on the table when we arrived. Bread Pudding. Long story short, I was up all night thinking I was going to die. I wasnt sure if it was my appendix blowing up, or the food I ate. We came to the conclusion that it was the bread pudding. Eric to the rescue. He stayed up with me and took care of me. He did my dishes. Took my daughter to her dads house. Gave the dog her meds. All the while it is 3 degrees outside with a windchill of 20 below.
My angel.
I told him after I slept until noon, that there is only one other person that would have taken care of me like that....Jessica. It was such a great feeling to have him take care of me. I kinda cant wait until hes sick so I can take care of him. He was wonderful. Im not 100% yet, but Ive been able to eat and do feel a ton better.
Im off to watch 'Fido' with most of my kids and Eric. I will give my review the next time I post. This is one of Erics movies, so we are all a little scared. Its about a zombie who is the 'dog' pet of these humans....I think. Should be interesting.
I hope you all had a great weekend. Stay warm and see ya soon...
Peace Out....
From what Eric tells me, its been a while since Ive posted. And I thought its only been a few days. Where does the time go?
Ive been busy. I have been working nights, a lot. I hate working nights. If anything, Im up early and like to get things done then chill the rest of the day. I typically go to bed around 9 so when I have to work until 9, it messes me up.
Im not really in the spirit of Christmas this year, again. Im not too sure why. I have my kids, I have Eric and Im working someplace I like working.
I think lack of money has something to do with it. I wish that I could fill the floor with gifts for everyone, but I cant. I do buy the kids stuff all year and I realized last year, I dont need to spend another shitload of money just for Christmas. They were all ok with that. So this year, they are all getting socks and underwear. They are ok with that.
Ive gotten Eric a few things, but Ive already given them to him. He gave me a DVD box set that Ive wanted for a while...I was so flippen happy! He also gave me a movie for my PSP. Simple. I hope like hell he didnt get me anything else....HINT HINT!!
More than anything, I just want to be able to hang out with my family for the day. Watch movies and just chill. I dont make dinner. We munch.
I have to work on Christmas Eve until 630. My kids will be at their dads, as usual. Eric and I are sure what we are going to do yet. Maybe chill at his house. Maybe chill at my brothers house. All that really matters to me is that Im warm, Im not alone, and Eric is with me.
Ive started to make cookies. Between the kids, boyfriends and girlfriends, we are making 19 different kinds. Eric and I started this morning. 5 down, 14 to go. My daughter is going to help me in the morning knock out a few more. I think after tomorrows batches, we will start handing them out the friends and neighbors.
Eric, Jessica, Hailey, Brad and I all went to see the Madrigals. The kids are from our local high school and to listen to them sing is amazing. Simply amazing. We dressed up and went for dinner. Dessert was on the table when we arrived. Bread Pudding. Long story short, I was up all night thinking I was going to die. I wasnt sure if it was my appendix blowing up, or the food I ate. We came to the conclusion that it was the bread pudding. Eric to the rescue. He stayed up with me and took care of me. He did my dishes. Took my daughter to her dads house. Gave the dog her meds. All the while it is 3 degrees outside with a windchill of 20 below.
My angel.
I told him after I slept until noon, that there is only one other person that would have taken care of me like that....Jessica. It was such a great feeling to have him take care of me. I kinda cant wait until hes sick so I can take care of him. He was wonderful. Im not 100% yet, but Ive been able to eat and do feel a ton better.
Im off to watch 'Fido' with most of my kids and Eric. I will give my review the next time I post. This is one of Erics movies, so we are all a little scared. Its about a zombie who is the 'dog' pet of these humans....I think. Should be interesting.
I hope you all had a great weekend. Stay warm and see ya soon...
Peace Out....
Sunday, December 7, 2008
12-7-08
Hi.
It was so cool to wake up this morning to the smell of cinnamon rolls baking, my love laying next to me and the sun shining.
I am so very grateful that he is here with me.
Thank you to everyone for the support you have given him. These past few weeks have been life changing for him and me. I just really appreciate everything everybody has said and done for us.
Peace out...
It was so cool to wake up this morning to the smell of cinnamon rolls baking, my love laying next to me and the sun shining.
I am so very grateful that he is here with me.
Thank you to everyone for the support you have given him. These past few weeks have been life changing for him and me. I just really appreciate everything everybody has said and done for us.
Peace out...
Monday, December 1, 2008
12-1-08
December. Wow.
So we start December with about 3 inches of snow. Thankfully it snowed AFTER we took Tim to the airport and we were home safe. I had to shovel twice last night. It sucked.
Today its cold and windy. I swear every time I leave the house. Bitching about how cold it it and how much I hate crunchy snow. (if you dont know what crunchy snow is, just ask)
My garage didnt get done. Damnit! Its so close. I think about 1 trip of bikes to my sons storage shed and 1 trip to Erics house and I will be able to park in there. Oh and lets not forget the garbage my lazy ass son didnt take out last week....
Work is great. Im getting more hours. Finally. They trained me for the deli. Day one was long and informational. I was on overload. That is until my boyfriend surprised me with a dozen beautiful pink roses. That was a great surprise, but made the day go so much slower. I think Im going to like the deli once I get used to it. Working 5 days a week will be awesome as well.
My daughter is getting FAT!! My grandson is getting big. We have been planning a baby shower for her with my family, his family, friends and my ex husbands family. If everyone shows up, we are going to have 70 or so people. What a great time!!
The move went very well. We had the truck unloaded in an hour. After that, everyone just started putting things together. The couch, dining room table, bedroom, kitchen.... It was awesome. Eric is probably 75% unpacked, if not more. Boxes were put in the garage. Wrapping paper was folded nicely for reuse when we move. It was like a well oiled clock. It was perfect. Nice to be able to walk into your home and it looks like a home and not a moving day mess.
After the big move, we relaxed for a little bit and then went to Fattys. One of my familys favorite dining establishments. (as Eric would say) We had a room all to ourselves in the back. There are 2 pool tables that we were using. Tables were pushed together for a party of 15 or so. It was perfect. Every one had great food and a lot of drink. We finally got home around 1130. Eric, even though he doesnt drink, looked drunk. He had been up for 24 hours and looked a mess. Regardless of how tired everyone was, we had a very memorable night.
Christmas is coming. My tree is up this year and we even have lights outside. Im sure Erics tree will be up in a week or so. Tis the season...
Thats about all for now. Im sure theres more, but I just dont know what. Time to go clean the house as its been ignored for a week or so.
Talk soon.
Peace out.....
So we start December with about 3 inches of snow. Thankfully it snowed AFTER we took Tim to the airport and we were home safe. I had to shovel twice last night. It sucked.
Today its cold and windy. I swear every time I leave the house. Bitching about how cold it it and how much I hate crunchy snow. (if you dont know what crunchy snow is, just ask)
My garage didnt get done. Damnit! Its so close. I think about 1 trip of bikes to my sons storage shed and 1 trip to Erics house and I will be able to park in there. Oh and lets not forget the garbage my lazy ass son didnt take out last week....
Work is great. Im getting more hours. Finally. They trained me for the deli. Day one was long and informational. I was on overload. That is until my boyfriend surprised me with a dozen beautiful pink roses. That was a great surprise, but made the day go so much slower. I think Im going to like the deli once I get used to it. Working 5 days a week will be awesome as well.
My daughter is getting FAT!! My grandson is getting big. We have been planning a baby shower for her with my family, his family, friends and my ex husbands family. If everyone shows up, we are going to have 70 or so people. What a great time!!
The move went very well. We had the truck unloaded in an hour. After that, everyone just started putting things together. The couch, dining room table, bedroom, kitchen.... It was awesome. Eric is probably 75% unpacked, if not more. Boxes were put in the garage. Wrapping paper was folded nicely for reuse when we move. It was like a well oiled clock. It was perfect. Nice to be able to walk into your home and it looks like a home and not a moving day mess.
After the big move, we relaxed for a little bit and then went to Fattys. One of my familys favorite dining establishments. (as Eric would say) We had a room all to ourselves in the back. There are 2 pool tables that we were using. Tables were pushed together for a party of 15 or so. It was perfect. Every one had great food and a lot of drink. We finally got home around 1130. Eric, even though he doesnt drink, looked drunk. He had been up for 24 hours and looked a mess. Regardless of how tired everyone was, we had a very memorable night.
Christmas is coming. My tree is up this year and we even have lights outside. Im sure Erics tree will be up in a week or so. Tis the season...
Thats about all for now. Im sure theres more, but I just dont know what. Time to go clean the house as its been ignored for a week or so.
Talk soon.
Peace out.....
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