1-21-09

Happy 2009.

This is my first post of the year. Ive been a tad busy.

My daughter is going to have a baby in about 8 weeks. I have been planning a baby shower for approximately 80 people. The store has been calling me in to work on my days off. Eric and I have been trying to spend some time together. Its been cold as shit and who wants to go outside when the temp is -15. I had a day in court.

I could probably go on and on. Its just been one of those years...again.

Jessica is doing great. Shes surprised me, a lot! I guess shes been a lot 'tougher' than normal. The baby shower, we decided, would make more sense if we had one huge one. There are so many friends and families, neither one of us wanted to go to 5 showers. So why not have 1?

My family, Brads family, my ex-family and friends. 80 people. Not to worry, the party isnt at my house. Hell, I dont think I could fit half of them here. We got the church my Grandma went to. She would have like that. I have been buying 'stuff' and organizing food and recruiting help with food and games and running around and trying to .... Get the point? Im slightly stressed.

We had Justins anniversary on the 13th. Of course it was one of the coldest days on record. To get to his grave site, we had to 'climb'...no 'trek'...ok we climbed and trekked through 2 feet of snow. Dont forget this was on one FUCKING cold ass day. I had snow up my pant legs...in my shoes. I was frozen. Eric, that snot, had boots on but made me go first. Eric and I were laughing because I know that kid was getting a kick out of watching us. God I miss that kid...

I got to go to court for an unpaid bill John is supposed to be paying. Long story short. I win! The lawyer is going to go after him because he makes like 10x what I do and agreed that he should pay his fair share. Its an orthodontist bill that I paid every time I took Jess to her appointment. I can get pissed right now, but Im going to let it go. Ive vented enough. I just hope that this lawyer can get John in court and I wont have to worry about this again. This lawyer also highly encouraged me to get a lawyer of my own to take John back to court for money child support. Im still on the fence. It will cost money and its another fight with the ex Im not sure I want to do. In the long run, he will be an asshole to his kids to get back at me. Hes a jerk like that.

Work is work is work. Not too long ago I worked 11 days straight. They have been calling me in on my days off and asking me to stay later or come in earlier. I need the money so I cant say 'no'. I miss being with Eric and the kids. Eric knows when I say, 'youre going to kill me', Im going in early. Hes amazing.

Eric and I are doing really, really well. Hes not driving me crazy like I thought he would. We spend as much time together as we can. We are both excited for spring to get here so we can actually be outside. Im thankful everyday for having him in my life.

We have a new president. Eric and I watched that together. It was an awesome moment. Im looking forward to change. Im looking forward to good things from Barack.

I just looked at the clock and I need to scoot. Ive got things to do today and Im not getting them done sitting here blogging.

I hope everyones New Year is going smooth.

Talk soon...

Peace Out!!!