Another day, another post.
It was a rough day yesterday for Eric and I. We didnt quite see eye to eye on some things. Its ok, this will happen. I think distance has played a part as well.
Its really hard when the one you want to be with is 500 miles away. I want to be with Eric. The only way I know this relationship is going to work is if we are together. Makes sense. I would hate for us to talk so much and know each other, then only to move in with each other and not get along.
How does one make a long distance relationship work?
Communication is good. We do that. A lot of it as a matter of fact. I question if we can talk too much. Yeah, thats not possible. Theres no such thing as talking too much.
It scares me a little that he is so confident in this relationship. How does he know for sure that he loves me as much as he does? I love him, but as I told him, I dont love him as much as he loves me. Why? How is it so easy for him and Im having such a problem with it? Not that Im having a problem loving him, but why dont I love him as much? Will I? Hes very confident that I will love him that much. How does he know this?? Does he have a crystal ball he looks into??
I dont get it.
Are these questions valid?
I know that there are a few people out there that have the answers to these questions. You can email me. I want to know what youre thinking.
Aside from that, Im ok. My Gram is ok. Everyday is hard. Period. Her doctor was in to see her the other day while I was there. He said shes getting better. WHAT THE FUCK?!? Two days before that we were told she wasnt doing well at all. I wish they would make up their minds. Shes 99 years old and failing, but the doctor is confident that shes going to be around to see 100.
The look on my brothers face when I told him that, was priceless.
I dont have a doctors appointment until June 4th. Still no work. I found out this doctor Im going to see wont even release me to work. Hes going to release me back to my doctor. What a fuckin waste of time and energy. Just sign here on the dotted line and let me go back to work. Simple.
Its beautiful outside. I didnt spend more than 30 minutes out there today. What the hell is wrong with me?
I may see if the kids want to go to Chicago tomorrow. They have been wanting to go. Its not really an expensive trip. I can spend the day there with them for under $75. Personally, I dont think thats bad. Typically it depends on how hungry they are. Thats the killer.
I just flipped on ESPN2 to be prepared for the race that starts in 10 minutes, and there is a parade on. Its an IRL parade in Indianapolis, IN. (IRL, Indy Racing League) I had no idea they had a parade for the Indy 500. Cool!
OK
I guess I have nothing else. I look forward to those emails.
Have a great Memorial Day Weekend.
Peace Out....
2 comments:
Distance makes for a bumpy road. But distance also makes you talk through a lot of things in detail in an open honest way. This may seem contradictory, because it seems easier to hide, but it really isn't.
We're not always going to see eye to eye on everything, but if we did, I think life would be very dull and boring.
If everyone saw the world the same, it just wouldn't be as exciting, interesting or worth living.
As for how I know...you know how I know.
I do love you.
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