5-4-08

I tried so hard to get this blog in before midnight last night, but it just didnt work. I was talking to my Eric, my girlfriend Kathy, playing 3 games of Scrabble, and chatting with a friend from Australia that I met on FB.

Here is the update on my Gram. She looked great! Its amazing what some blood can do to a body. I think shes going home tomorrow/today. Not quite sure. But shes much better. Her heart is failing. Its 99 years old. Thats OLD! Shes tired and I think ready to leave this place and move on to bigger and better places. I know her first stop will be the casinos in Laughlin, NV. Nobody knows how much time she has with us. God will take her when hes ready. Im going to be a little selfish and hope its not for a few months. Is that asking too much?

So its 334am here. Kids are all asleep. My animals are surrounding me. Eric went to bed a few hours ago. I wish he were online because Im not tired. There is a party going on outside somewhere. My dog will raise her head and put out this small growl. Like shes going to save us or something. Its quite amusing. Its cold. Im waiting for 80 degrees and Im starting to wonder if it will ever get here.

I love NASCAR. It isnt about turning left, people. Its getting your car adjusted during the race to make it the best it can be. Starting from the back and making your way to the front with good pit stops and strategy. Most people just dont get it and I have given up trying to explain it. Either you like it or you dont. I love it!

So there was a race on tonight. Saturday night race at Richmond, VA. A short track. If Im not mistaken, its a 3/4 mile long track. I could get technical and look this up, but its 340am and Im a little lazy. You can go to NASCAR.com to get the information if you really want. Anyway, Eric was on the phone with me while it was ending. I have warned him that I get a little excited when there is a good race on. Well, he found out tonight how I get. Poor man. I actually felt bad for him. I was saying words I dont normally say because I was so pissed off. Stupid Kyle Busch hit my Dale Jr, spun him out of 2nd place, thus throwing a caution. Dale ended up 15th but is still 3rd in points. He was a little pissed himself. He should have won the race. *sigh* There is always next week.

Eric, Im sorry you had to hear me swear the way I did. I did warn you, honey.

My brother, best friend, puppy and paralyzed dog may be coming for a visit soon. To see Gram, of course. They also want to meet Eric. *sigh* I stress just thinking about it.

I live in a town home. 3 bedroom, 1 1/2 bath. There will be, if this happens, 3 dogs, 2 cats, 4 adults, 3 to 7 kids between the ages of 15 and 20....and a partridge in a pear tree, in my house. Maybe this is why Im awake at 349am.

It comforts me to know that I would be in my own room, with the door closed, with Eric holding me until I fall asleep. Unless, of course, my brother scares the shit out of him and he hikes it back to PA. Hes a brave man if really does take place. Personally, I would be scared.

Eric is an amazing man. I keep asking myself, him, my girlfriends, God....why and how I deserve such an amazing man. I have gotten quite a few different answers. The most popular answer is, 'because you DO deserve him'. I know I do.....the the 'me' in me thats having a problem with it.

I have been through a lot in my life. An ex husband who.......lets not talk about him today. Lets just say, hes an ass. A few boyfriends that started out as potentials, but ended up being duds. Besides the so called men in my life, I have lost both my parents, have raised my 4 kids by myself during the hardest time in their lives.....those pre-teenage years, trying to keep sane, working full time, managing my house......I could go on and on.

Eric

I wasnt going to mention him tonight, but I cant stop thinking about him. Hes amazing. I have known him for 3 weeks or so, and it feels like a lifetime. He and I fit together like 2 puzzle pieces. I love him with all my heart. Thank you for finding me, baby.

The party is finally over. Im not sure if the police were involved, but its quiet now. My dog went upstairs to find her blankie and snuggle. Rico, well, hes laying next to me wishing I would just go to bed so he can follow. Bob, hell, who knows where Bob is.

410am. Im going to bed.

One more little thing....Eric finally won a game of Scrabble against Kathy and I. He got a word worth 106 points. I am so proud of him.

Hey, theres Bob....hehe

Peace Out....