6-21-08

Ive really got nothing. Nothing has been going on here as of late.

Eric left on Wednesday and I miss him. Its so quiet here. Back to being chill without him here. I so enjoyed our long drives to nowhere. I saw countryside I hadnt seen before. Im sure he was bored out of his mind looking at endless corn fields and flat land. As much as I hate it here, I enjoy driving in the country before the corn gets too high to see over it. The sunsets are beautiful as well. Eric did get some great shots of the sunset over the fields. Maybe he will post one.

Im done with physical therapy. Im not 100%, but Im not progressing either. At some point you have to just accept it and move on. This is what Ive done. I will continue with my exercising, to a point. Ive never been a fan of exercising. Im going to get one of those huge balls. I can do those exercises and enjoyed them. hm, Why not do something I enjoy? I will also continue walking my Kadie girl. Thats good for both of us.

My Gram is the same. No changes. She still doesnt know who I am. Im Norma, my mom. Thats ok. I accept that as close enough. She likes Eric. Her eyes lit up when he told her that he was my boyfriend. Thats all shes ever wanted for me. Shes met him a few times, but seems to forget who he is when he goes back. She didnt want to see me alone after my divorce. She didnt understand thats what I wanted. Things changed.

My kids are enjoying summer vacation. They so badly want to go somewhere, but money is tight. We are thinking about going to see Eric. Its not the beach, but we will still have fun. I figure the beach isnt going anywhere, we can do it next year. Summer just started, and Eric isnt going anywhere.

The race is coming up in a few weeks. We are all excited about that. The all access passes fell through. It sucks. Apparently they are now charging $600 a piece for the passes. Yeah, I cant do that. I will get my day in the pits, just not this year. Kathy and I still have awesome seats for the races. Start/Finish line about 20 rows up. Cant beat that!!!

Work is work. This past week I got more dumped on me. More responsibilities. Yay. I need a team of 8 instead of 3. The new store manager is tough. Its what the store needs. No more bullshit, which I like. Maybe people will do their jobs now instead of fucking around. I also like that he sees things the other exes 'miss'. I think he and I will get along just fine.

I mentioned in a blog a while ago that my 13 year old nephew died a few months ago. A subject that is still very raw to me. He was my baby. My 5th child. He got his headstone this week. For whatever reason, it made me happy to think he was more than just a marker in the ground. Im going to go see him today and take a few pictures. I may post one here, I may not. Im not sure yet. I will have one on my MySpace page, which nobody here has a link to, but thats ok. My sister has access to that account and Im posting it for her. Shes seen it, just not at the cemetery. I never thought I could miss anybody as much as I miss that little man.

I think thats about it for today. So much for writing everyday. I tried there for a while, and was doing real good. Either got tired, didnt have anything to say, or the day was just another day. Lets try for every other day.

Have a great weekend.

Peace Out....